Thanks for the Distance

I’m finally learning to hold my tongue

Much tighter than I ever held you

I’m realizing that I’ve fought harder to let you go than I did to let you stay

Because losing you was the last resort

But losing you was the last straw

I’m finally learning how to love you

From afar, of course

Because you always wanted an admirer, of course

So here I am

A stranger

A stranger through the fogged glass

A stranger putting pen to paper about you

A stranger making mental notes about you

A stranger sinking in the quicksand that is you

I’ll stand another day

To love from afar

To love with out expectation

To love without being loved

To give you what you want without forcing in me

To hold my tongue

To love even though we’re done

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

It’s not true

Absence makes the heart grow stronger